My precious lovebug...

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I've had this feeling lately .. this indescribable feeling .. I search for words but I can't find the right ones.

I found this.  Somebody read my mind.

Baby girl, you turned o*n*e, eleven days ago.  And I can't even believe you're one already!  But already -one and eleven days- ?!  Pfft!  Not fair.

I know you are going to grow up, regardless of my efforts to make time stop.  And I am so excited to watch you learn and grow, watching you this far has been amazing.  And I know that if I kept you little, I would miss so many things.  But right now, there are just S.o.M.a.N.y. cute things that I love!!

I love the way you put your head on my shoulder and squish your little face into my neck.  I love the way you crack up at my funny faces.  Whether they are actually funny, or you're just doing it to float my boat, only you know sweet thang =).  The way you run around like a monster, and crush your block boxes.  The way you chase Dozer and laugh so hard.  The way you push your lips up to your nose and make the funniest blowing noises.  The way you 'blow kisses' - hand to face and blow out your nose! =D  Your concentration face ... playing, eating, anything.  The way you point out your little lips so preciously and focus so hard.  The way you think you can crawl through the coffee table, but almost always get stuck.  The way you take out every single VHS movie (not necessarily my favorite part lol) and then come to show me, so proudly, that you rescued the movie from that pesky case that you hate.  The way you hug my legs and bury your head into them.  The way that you'll always go shopping with me ... and be interested in anything that I'm willing to show you.  =)  The way you look up at me from your car seat, you have to look really far back, but as soon as you figure out which side I'm on you get the biggest smile.  The way that now that you can walk, you love to follow me through out the house.  The way that you love to wave to little kids, anywhere and everywhere we go.  The way that you love to explore, and to be with other people, but most of all, how you will choose yourself to come over to me and climb into my lap =).

So many things, that I could never finish.  So many things that I love, and hope I always remember the specific feeling.

I love you for always Kayder-tators!  As long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.

We've been reading this book, but I'll save that for another post. =)